Neo genezis evangelion book 1v2. part 3.4

 It's decided that we don't need Rey as a girlfriend (although Shinji himself seemed to have such thoughts on the verge of consciousness), and anyway, somehow I don't need any girls. For now. When the war ends, then, perhaps, it is possible... Oh, if only it didn't end like that time...

 So, what are we doing with Ray anyway? Well, we are definitely friends — now both she and I are of such an age that friendship between individuals of different sexes is quite possible. And, of course, we will make her a normal girl, not a biorobot, if possible. She's a good girl, and I feel sorry for her even because of such a terrible "childhood."..

 So, now he's probably the most difficult character in the whole saga. Yes, yes, yes-not Gendo and not Rei. So, let me introduce you to the Second Child of Soryu Asuka Langley Tsepellin. German, with an admixture of Japanese blood, but for some reason with U.S. citizenship. The red-haired beast and the infernal fury. The character is flighty and incredibly nasty. Arrogant, self-confident, brash and out of control. A blatant example of such a rare complex of usefulness nowadays. He Considers himself The Best Evangelion pilot, Who Is Not Even A Match For Anyone.

 And that's her main problem.

 In early childhood, she experienced a severe psychological shock. Her mother, Kyoko, who lost her mind as a result of a scientific experiment, stopped recognizing little Asuka as her daughter, and began calling the doll her daughter. To be honest, for a small child, this is simply monstrous, there is nothing worse at this age than being ignored, especially in such a terrible form. Okay, that's half the trouble, the main thing is that on the day Soryu was informed that she was now Eva's pilot, Kyoko hanged herself. Asuka's father remarried, and Sorya seemed to get along with her stepmother, but the break in her remained. And at the crucial moment, on the basis of Shinji's superiority as Eva's pilot, Asuka went off the cutting. Her mental health began to steadily deteriorate, and her level of synchronization began to fall. During the attack of one of the Angels, Asuka was hit by a psychic blow and finally broke down. She couldn't take part in the following battles, because Asuka's synchronization level dropped below critical, and she couldn't even launch Eva-02. In the original series, her story ended extremely sadly — driven mad by hatred for everything and everyone, and above all for herself, she was found in some scattered ruins, in a bathtub filled with rainwater.

 I hate endings like this where everything is unclear, though... Evangelion is generally a VERY incomprehensible thing towards the end. And as for Asuka's fate... It's hard to say which is worse — her fate in the original series or in the sequel.

 Although she was able to pilot Eva again in The End of Evangelion, Asuka apparently died during the battle with the nine serial Evangelions sent by ZIELE. At least the latest footage of her shows that she has lost her left eye and her right arm is cut. And the next moment, Eva-02 is pierced by nine duplicates of the Spear of Longinus, including the place where the contact capsule is located. And after that, the serial killers simply tore Aska"s Evangelion apart and devoured the remains...

 But at the very end, after the completion of the Complementation, we see Sorya again, lying on the shore of the ocean of LSL and diligently suffocated by our dear Shinji. How can this be explained?.. I don't know, ask for something easier, for example, what kind of weed did the inventor of all this smoke?.. Although no, it's not grass anymore, but heavy synthetics...

 So, it's already gone to unnecessary spoilers and abstract reasoning — it's not so important how exactly Asuka escaped then. Was it just a miracle, or was she brought back to life by the will of the New God Shinji the Destroyer?.. The main thing is, how to avoid all this now? And it is vital to avoid this — in the upcoming war with the Angels and ZIELE, every pilot will be needed. We don't have that many of them in our NERVE, damn it...

 Damn, why aren't there any full-time psychologists in NERV? Although, here I don't even know how they could help — heartwarming conversations won't have any effect, and it's a difficult task to put a crippled child's psyche in order...

 So, what can I do? I need a team of dedicated people-I won't fight much on my own, whether against Angels or humans. Misato and the technicians (they're kind of normal guys) will help in the command center, and the pilots will help on the battlefield.

 Rei is active, Toji is in development, Asuka...

 Asuka is a problem. And a big one.

 To lose as much as 25% of the total power, and, perhaps, all 33.3%, I still don't smile at all — two Eves are good, but three is even better...

 And what are we going to do?

 So, no matter what, Soryu is very lonely because of her arrogance. So what does that mean? So, you will have to become her friend so that there is at least someone who can support her in a difficult moment. But how? Well, I don't know how to make friends and that's it! Okay, okay... Even if I just don't act like an animated stool, that is, like Shinji in the original, then that will be a huge plus. Anyway, we'll see. I looked at the double sheet of paper covered with small handwriting and thought hard.

 I've written and thought of a lot of things here, but most of the work boils down to building bridges and making contacts... That is, I didn't really come up with anything useful, just abstract conclusions and general phrases...

 In a rage, I slammed my right fist into the open palm of my left hand.

 Himmelherrgott!.. How difficult it is! Well, I don't know, I don't know what to do now! What's the use to me of these post-holidays if I have to redo everything for myself... Okay, to hell with all this, let's try to put it all off for later, and do more pressing things... How much time is there before the next Angel attacks? Two weeks? A month? We should prepare ourselves...

 In short, the morning is more complicated than the evening, Vitya. Go back to sleep... Good night. And to you, Shinji-inside-me, good night. Are you okay after all the information I've dumped on you? After all, it's not every day that you learn SUCH news, especially about the supposed end of the world and your guilt in it... Okay, okay, okay, calm down! That won't happen this time, Victor promised Shinji. That's it, let's go to sleep already...

  But no, stop! There's one more thing...

 I was about to go to bed, but I got up, took a piece of paper with notes, folded it in four and began to carefully tear it into small pieces. When the level of chaos seemed sufficient to me, I went to the window, opened the sash and threw the papers out the window.

 It is extremely imprudent to have such a compromise on oneself.